23 Jan 2017

out of mind

i really feel like i'm out of my mind
soon i'll go really fucking mad
i can't stand myself anymore, i'm lost in my thoughts,
lost in my desires.
i'm scared to be left alone, but i have to deal with it.
and i'm starting to talk to myself.
it's getting worse every day and i can't help it
and i am crazy

15 Jan 2017

you only see what you don't like

you are the one you need to love

a lot of things to do, but i like it.
i like when i'm busy but my work is effective.
i'm focused on studying and art and art studying:p

9 Jan 2017

i'm not in a great position right now, but i'm lying in my bed.
i'm listening to music and tomorrow nothing bad should happen.
i can't complain on anything. i have my music and mornings.
i'm trying to be a better person. and see things around me. 
i don't need any boyfriend, i have a lot of friends and i like my dreams
and some mysteries of my soul and heart which even i personally can't find out.

the only thing i'm not happy of is how i look. i really don't like my body.

4 Jan 2017

i look outside

i'm in really complicated situation
and there is nowhere i can hide

2 Jan 2017


i lost myself in an unclear crowd.
new year has started but i still don't feel it.
i don't know if i feel anything at all.
i know that lots of things gonna happen and i'm ready for them.
but i can't find right place for me now
there's too much around me and i'm not sure about any idea.
i'm everywhere and nowhere 
and i guess i stayed alone.
i need few more days of and to rest
and maybe i will stand up straight.
i have to clear my mind and thoughts and tidy mess around me.
i need to come across clean space.

30 Dec 2016

today's photos taken by my friend

today i'm in some kind of dispersion

here is my official music video, which i made by myself,


27 Dec 2016

new song!

i've recorded a new song
and i'm finishing music video for it!
i'm excited c:

here is the song: