so yea. it didn't work. but actually it is all my fault. everything that i wish, it hadn't happened. and just because i can't let things stay as they are. i always provoke ache to appear. i just belong with it, and it feels like i'm made of this little thing that makes people have a sad face. and maybe i just want to help others to be more lucky, and i reject every goods that could happen to me. so, i don't know why i'd like to make imposibilities come true.