today's photos taken by my friend

today i'm in some kind of dispersion

here is my official music video, which i made by myself,

 enjoy!

new song!

i've recorded a new song

and i'm finishing music video for it!

i'm excited c:

here is the song:

 

and you got me like oh

it really scares me, this whole world. but i'm holding on.

tomorrow the last day at university this year

i have a weird feeling right now. it isn't bad and it isn't good

and this is the worst i guess. but at least i'm not really down.

 and i don't know how to translate my mind into words.

must be love on the brain

love for the world, i guess.

in a moment i'm going out.

i want to buy gifts for my family

then one lecture on the university. 

last 3 days and finally i will have some rest 

from everything that bothers me.

and.. of course i have to stop eat that much

(i need to tell this to bring it into life)

my stomach hurts a little lately.

don't quit loving me, just start loving me

last week for two days i was really happy

i met with my best friend, we spent almost whole day together

and after that and still after movie-party i was like singing and dancing

and since then i'm listening over and over the song of rihanna - love on the brain

and it makes me happy.

but of course because it is me and i'm not changing in some ways,

after those two lovely days, everything had to gone wrong.

i'm getting back my calmness and sense of neutral feeling now,

because i don't wanna think about it.

and of course i think i've became fat lately

i'd like to look better so much... but i'm becoming worse and worse i guess.

 

let it burn

and again i believe in whatever is meant to be, will be

and i'm not going to worry about things

world and people are nice and i always have memories

and i'm ready for new and i don't care

x

what's new

okay, so firstly i wanna share how i dressed up for a party and how it actually was

this is a photo which i took before going out:

(you might remember from last post which character i was)

and photos from the party shouldn't be showed in public haha

so just self-photo which i took and another one of me dancing

party was amazing, people were great,

i had so much fun and drank maybe a little too much:p 

but it was worth it! i came back home at 5.30 am xd

i stayed there longer than on new year's eve parties, so it had to be good!xd

the next day i spent almost whole in bed;p

and from that sunday i'm in really good mood c: